Friday, June 22, 2012

Pleasures of Life

I used to be on the computer a lot, mainly as an escape from the stresses of life. It would frustrate my ex-husband to no end. He liked to control me, so anything I would do often, or that I enjoyed doing, he would criticize me about it. (In fact, he STILL criticizes me about it, even though we are no longer married.) If I wasn't doing what he wanted me to do, if the house wasn't spotless and I wasn't cleaning, he would be angry, yet he would be on the computer playing games and not think anything of it. It’s all about control and pride. When people are jealous of others for having fun, then they criticize and make others feel like they are doing something wrong. You can always tell when someone hasn't forgiven you. You could say something to them and they would blow up, but someone else could say the same thing and they wouldn't be bothered. I still haven't figured out what I did that was so terrible that my ex hasn't forgiven me. It must have been pretty early on in our relationship because he's been like that towards me from before we were even married. I know, I was stupid for marrying a man who treated me so terribly, but I've learned from it and met someone who treats me right. In fact, whenever I am reminded of the way my ex was to me, it makes me appreciate my husband all the more. My husband has never criticized me for being on the computer, or anything else.

At least when I’m on the computer, I’m doing something constructive, rather than looking at porn like my ex used to do (and probably still does.)  I’m not into games or idle surfing. I’m on for about five minutes, then I get off. But I do this periodically. For instance, I may check my email three times a day. But that is only because I have built a business online and I need to be aware of what items have sold so that I can ship them.

Anyway, I haven’t been on the computer as much because I’ve been busy spending time with my kids and sewing. I love to make things. I am so blessed to have a husband who supports me in my crafts and hobbies, and so blessed to have children to share my life with.
So I have been enjoying the pleasures of life—God, family, creativity . . .