Wednesday, February 3, 2016

How something so little can be so big

 My last blog talked about my wrist pain. A lot has happened since then. Several doctor visits and a lot of bad news. Starting in July 2015, every day my wrist hurt. There wasn't a single day that went by without some sort of pain. The more I used it, the more it hurt. So I went to a doctor in August or September and she diagnosed me with tendinitis and said I need to take it easy for a couple months to allow it to heal.  A couple months came and went with no improvement.  So I went back to the doctor and told her that I think it's something different. There's something wrong and it needs to be checked out. She said she would refer me to a specialist but she never did. I called her to ask about it and left her messages and each time she said she would get around to it but never did. Finally I just let it go until December when I vacuumed my couch and then the pain hurts so bad for the next day, I knew something was wrong.  So I decided to go to a different doctor and she immediately set me up for x-rays and MRI appointments. My MRI showed that I had a torn ligament. So I went to a specialist and it was nothing but bad news.  The doctor told me that because the ligament is so small, that they can't just go in there and sew it up. He said that there's a chance that there's nothing that they could do and I just have to live with this pain for the rest of my life and that I have to learn to do things differently. What was really upsetting is that I was about to cry when he was telling me this, and he was smiling and laughing the whole time, like it was no big deal. "It's not like you have cancer or heart disease. You will live. You will just have to learn to do things differently." If I do have surgery,  ligaments take a year to heal. I would have to not use my wrist at all for at least 6 months, and even then, it might not heal completely or it could tear again.